This year I decided to join advanced and I'm glad that I did because I am actually enjoying painting all these birds. I'm still getting used to the part of every painting where it looks really bad and doesnt look how I want it. But you always tell me that in the beginning its always going to look bad and I just need to keep going. I'm glad I chose birds because I kind of like birds in general, they are so beautiful and they are all so different. I am enjoying painting more than I ever have and I'm glad that I gave it a chance. I feel like if I didn't take this class I wouldn't be enjoying it so much and I'm actually really proud of myself. I made this penguin because everyone kept giving me all these birds to make and I never liked any of them or none of them stuck out but then someone said penguin and I loved the idea of it. It took me probably a week to figure out what type of penguin I wanted but I don't know the name of it. It was the longer beaked one and I LOVE how it turned out. I have been really impressed how well I have been painting these. I used the same colors for the crow and the penguin and I'm kind of glad I did. I like the blue themed art. I know I won't keep the blue theme but I may make more art with it. I feel like I did a really good job at making the fur look kind of like riled up or something like that. It makes it look better than just a flat black on white. I mixed greys and blacks into the white and it makes the piece look so much better. I love how all my art work this year has turned out. Sometimes I wish I didn't wait till last moment to get it all done but I actually have got more done then I thought I would. I have gained a new joy in life and thats painting. I dont know why I love it so much now but I have bought myself multiple things of brushes and paints and I do it at home a lot. Now its something I do for my free time and ends up becoming an art project. I wish I could put just as much effort into my paintings into my digital art but I just dislike that class. I remember how bad I was last time I was in graphic design but I need to get better at it so I took it. This year I have been challenging myself and I feel really proud of myself. It also makes me feel really good when someone says something about my art when they dont know who made it and say its really good because usually I dont hear that. I also like when I bring it home and my parents want to hang it up on the wall so everyone can see it when they walk into the house.
Murderer
I love how this piece turned out. I never thought that I had this sort of skin inside me but I guess it just takes practice and the enjoyment of painting something as I did this crow. I'm not sure why I chose a crow I just know that they are kind of a message for death and decay and their herds are called a murder. I mean when I look at myself I see a darker side when I do any art. Its either cute and passionate or its dark and deals with death. The more I think about it the more I realize I am just like my sister and I'm okay with that. I like how my piece turned out and I do plan on keeping it forever and making sure that I show it off because I am impressed with how it turned out. If I had to do it again, to be honest I don't think I could. I know everyone in class hates the beak but I'm LEAVING it because if I try to fix it I'll end up ruining the whole piece and then I won't be able to fix the thing. I did come up against a lot of issues on this piece though and I am very glad that I fixed them and by doing so it make the piece look way better than the original plan. I love what I did for the wings, I kind of put blobs of black paint on the wings by using the palette knife and it turned out so good. I also love the snowy effect I gave the crow. It makes it look better in my eyes. As well as the eye, I am terrible at eyes and I don't understand how I made that eye. If I tried to recreate it I really don't think I could and I might kill myself so I'm never doing it again. I think in the past semester I have been doing well at creating art that is better than the rest of the years art. I think it may be just because I am actually trying when I paint. I am even starting to take the risks and paint over the things I don't want to paint over. So far my raven is my favorite just because how well it looks. Yeah, the beak isn't that good but if you look past it, it is one of the better pieces i've done throughout high school. I feel like my meaning gets by really well also in this piece. With how dark the bird and the dark green background you think of something dark, maybe even gory and like something bad is going to happen. I also really like how in this piece the bird is kind of dark but then you go to the eye and it' something you'd probably see on a happy bird. So its got like mixed feelings just like me since I can get pretty bad and like bipolar and all this. I feel like if I had to be a bird I would most likely choose a crow because they hang in a group and i feel like I am the best in a group because then I actually talk and they eat dead animals and I basically eat everything and they represent dead things and I want to die so what's the difference.